I dont care about anything anymore but school and it's actually pretty nice. Night school is so relaxing, im so glad I signed up. You can actually take the time to learn something for yourself without teachers bitching at you or telling you to do it a certain way. And you can leave anytime you want after 7:00. I dont really talk to anyone anymore, like actually TALK. I dont share my opinions with anyone anymore. The only person I ever talk to about shit is Anthony and thats because it feels like he's the only one who actually cares. I just think I gave up trying to have friendships because all of the ones i've had in the past always got fucked up or just stopped existing randomly. Even though I know some of them were my fault. I dont even feel close with my mom anymore, and she used to be the one person I could count on to be close to no matter what. Recently she's just been piling shit on top of me and just making me feel like a horrible person, which I know im not. But then again, sometimes I feel like I am. I hate the things I do sometimes, and the things I say. Most of the time they dont make any sense and I realize it right after I do or say it. I guess im just really stressed out and I get it out in weird ways. Do I even care what im writing about?

Just when I thought nothing would make me happy tonight, you called.
You turn every negative thing in my life invisible.
You are the hand that helps me when im down.
You strive to make me feel happy, and trust me, you dont have to try too hard.
You make me laugh when two seconds before I felt like crying.
You are the smile on my face.
And you will never know how much I appreciate you for it.

I MISS CHANCE.
HOLY FUCK.

I just dont give a shit anymore.
Ive cried my eyes out from being lonely one too many times.


I dont give a shit.

I feel sooooooooo good right now.

Like daaaaaaamn lil mama.

Its really ridiculous how I cant have a life because I always have like an hour to stay out because I have to come home and do choreschoreschores.

Clean your own fucking room.

Today was good as hell.

TWO MORE FUCKING DAYS OF SCHOOL.
Im so ready for summer its not even fucking funny.

Im really content with myself and the people around me.
Finally. Ive been wanting to feel like this for awhile.

I realized alot last night.
Thing that I should have realized a long time ago.
Im glad I have friends who help make me realize.
I felt so stupid.
But thats gone now.
I feel really good, and really relieved.

Got caught skipping.
Grounded 4EVER.